Wow, just read the news on Facebook that this year there'll be SMTP triple science people! Wow. An army of ultra-muggers. I mean, there are ultra-muggers and high-fliers in our batch too, who are in triple science, but there're only a handful of them. This year, there's probably going to be an ARMY OF THEM omg. Muggers gonna take over school.

I think I'm over-reacting.
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But this brings me to another point. I was walking home from the MRT today, after tutoring, and I was holding a Murakami book in my hand and listening to music. :D In other words, I was feeling exra zen. Mused over the past few days' events, etc., things like that.
I was thinking that everyone needs to do something stupid once in a while, possibly even everyday, just to keep his own sanity in check. Keeping to high standards everyday, keeping yourself flawless, everyday-- it is just not possible.
I suppose that's why some people are scared of others who are very nice ("too nice"), or who are so clinical in the way they approach life. They just don't seem to belong to the world.
Crudely put, every creature needs to poop once in a while to function normally.
Some people have diarrhoea everyday and it stinks up other people's lives, but ultimately they still function well and all is forgiven.
Some people constipate and they have a horrible aching feeling because it is just not right to survive with all that waste inside your system.

And then another thing I was thinking about is, the only limits that exist come from yourself. Things like psychological barriers.

Oookay I shall not crap anymore, I got KI essay to do and Math promo corrections.

----- An hour or so later
KI essay is forming, but it is taking too long and it is flapping away in my head now. i.e. I'm stoning la goose. Urgh. My brother just came in and made me guilty by asking me why I was looking at Facebook while writing my essay. Ahh!
When something doesn't work out right, the only thing you can blame is your willpower.
Speaking of my brother, he was at his peak of irritating today. I shall not say why because I'm a magnanimous person and as I said all people need to be insane once in a while to keep their sanity so I'm glad that my brother is insane today so that he won't really go crazy a few months later. And also he was being irritating in a childish way so I can forgive him because I, unlike him, am very mature and understanding.
:D

I should totally cut down on my internet time because even though I'm doing work, I get sidetracked and I start doing things like blogging.
Say no to hedonism!

I realize I've been trying to delude myself this whole week that I'm doing work/going to do work effectively even when I was stoning. Noooo okay say no to hedonism!

Not coherent now, it's 12.30 am.

So sian. I'm alternating between fits of muggerhood and inertness of brain. And the fits of muggerhood don't last more than half an hour at the most. I hope I have more fits of muggerhood.
Then again it's all because of my slackerhood that's why I never sleep enough. I can't wait for...CNY to come. At least there'll be more sleep!

Saw J1s today. Immediately felt like going back to J1.
BUT IT'S OKAY I HAVE ONE YEAR LESS OF TESTS.

zzz ._.

I've just been wasting time (surprisingly! o:) by looking through my older blog posts. It feels like a friendly little wave out of my blurry past in NY. Which feels really heartwarming of course.
If you ask me to describe my life story to you now I'd be dumbfounded because I really cannot remember anything offhand from, say, my secondary school days. My memory is a huge misty curtain.
Some things I noted though:

1. I was definitely a lot more stressed up about my academic performance in secondary school. Not surprising. Of course I'm still concerned about my grades now but I don't press myself for excellence anymore.
However now that I'm in J2 my angelic inner twin says I must treat excellence like it's a given. o_O Mr M Lim suddenly comes to mind.

2. I classified my moods last time. Happy, not so happy, downright depressed. I don't think I care so much about moods now as I do about being able to sneak a few minutes blogging.

3. The language I used was (slightly) more interesting/quirky. I think my English has been on a downward spiral. Oh 天！

4. I was downright miserable in the 2nd half of sec 4. I think.

Anyway back to work finally.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ruXTtJjLVy4&ob=av2nm Chirpiest song I've ever heard. Sung by someone charming. ;)

This is horrible... I haven't thought so hard in a long while... And my IS proposal looks so SHORT!
I'm not even done with it and I don't know what else I can write!
Grrrrr

However, there is a bright side: The teacher said that the IS is a struggle and if you're not struggling, you're not growing.
Since I'm thinking so hard, I suppose my IQ is rising! HAH.

Feels quite invigorated after browsing through photos of open house on Facebook. ^^

Invigorated is not enough, must do work! Faints*

To whom much is given, much is expected. -Mr M Lim

SATs were ... tedious. Might have missed a question or page D: D: I hope not. But felt very tired after the exam (plus I woke at 5 am today!)

Neighbour's dog ran into our house today :D :D tried to play with it and it flipped onto its back x)

I just did something which is frankly making me a bit disturbed now about my principles if it is even a principle. But never mind. There is always a first time. And first times happen because of pressing need. And given that there's a pressing need I don't think I should be here now. But I feel a horrible need to get online.
EEEEE
I'm laughing at myself

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Today was swimming and it was a disaster because I failed it and I lost a earring in the pool!
Grrr.
Talk about getting excited over swimming. Pwee.
Failed cos I took a look at the bottom of the pool when I reached the middle and freaked out, thus making my already uncoordinated movements even more uncoordinated so I went to the side of the pool. Nearly drowned. I'm exaggerating.

Oh my goodness Gloriosa is so nice! (listening to mp3 version now apparently by phil winds)
Go and youtube it and appreciate some classical music instead of pop music for a change :) :)
Recent songs have made me realize that the euphonium has a really nice tone. Ohohoho. ^^

Oh goshzxzx somehow not in the mood for work at all. 8(

This (academic) year feels quite nice so far. It's quite hellish if you want to nitpick, from my experience at least. I suppose everyone has differing opinions on this. But it's important to keep your morale up (consciously or not, it doesn't matter) and keep chugging away.

It's really not too bad. I just wish we all had more common breaks, and more time to see each other!

Hereafter sounds like a nice movie. HMMS NO ONE HAS TIME.

Sometimes, some places, I feel like I don't totally belong. But the plus side is it's quite enjoyable. And fun can be found, if you look around. So no complaints.

Bio lecture just ended. Haha! Not looking forward to Friday's 2 hour lecture at all T.T

Feeling slightly disillusioned after making the choice not to take H3 Bio. But anyway it's good because this year is not the time to have illusions.

If a boy must wonder,
let him recall
not the lightning grace of falcons, the dizzying aeronautics, Darwin's finch, the voyage of the ancients
who saw farther, whose charts and sails
and bubbly telescopic minds
brought ashore hope
to lift
a charioting god to the moon,
but how
even a rogue dream of stars
once birthed the possibility of flight.

(By somebody called Leon Yuchin Lau. ??)

It is an inspiration and comfort that such driven and intellectual people exist.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Peter_Singer

I think his work might help in my IS.

Ayyee it's Friday quite a boring day because I spent time before band with Maths and Maths alone, and it didn't really want to cooperate with me... And now there's no one online!!! That I talk to.

I've mastered the art of sleeping in Econs lessons without the teacher or anyone else noticing. I think it's because I listen to the teacher half-asleep and try to copy notes half-asleep. But before my hand reaches the paper I'll have reached another degree of unconsciousness, so I'll forget what I wanted to write and end up leaving ink trails on the paper instead. Then wake up, and correction-tape away all the funny ink trails and the cycle repeats. So I look like I'm taking notes.

I have no idea if I should continue taking Econs. On one hand I don't really like it (it's fine~~) and it would be good to focus on my H2s. On the other I've mugged through about 2/3 of it and we're finishing the syllabus soon, so might as well finish, and also if I drop it then I don't have enough points to get the award or diploma or what. Did I count correctly.

Hmm band is interesting because... the parts that you play are not really nice on their own, but when you play with other people then one song gets put together and it sounds quite nice. And you can have like a 20 bar rest and still enjoy the music other people play.

Yays ISYF ends this sunday and next monday everyone will come back yayy. :D

Hmm... first week of school. Was fine I suppose. Nothing much to say, not full of emo like last time. Ohgosh my friend's class has GOOD tutors man. Seriously.
But no point comparing teachers la it all boils down to myself.
Highlights of this week. Open house. Seeing ISYF friends in school.
Inspiration of the week. Teachers dished out some good bits of wisdom to us.

ROAR.

Open house was so fun! :D
And the 2011 batch dance looks so fun!
Choir was nice. And somebody's eyebrows were as flexible as fei yu qing's.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z455Bs8slxo AWESOME SONG. Listen to it and you feel you're a rockstar yourself.

Oh my oh my I have school panic and maths anxiety combined grrrrrr

Some people are just so zesty and fired up with goals, goals for the year and stuff, especially academic goals (what do you expect). They are also proud of their achievements and aren't afraid to flaunt them. (Achievements like finishing all their homework.)
It's inspiring to be with them.
They are so much better than people like closet muggers.

SPREAD THE MUGGER SPIRIT ON, PEOPLE!

I'm going to lock myself up these last two days of the holidays and see what I can achieve with my homework T.T

Rules, rules, we're all very familiar with them. In fact we grew up with them.
Could these rules have cultivated a very different personality in us? Could they have curbed a wilder, more creative side of our characters?
Have they taught us to be more conscious of our social environment, so we all try to go with the flow and not stand out?

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Groar waiting for hair to dry. Reading Harry Potter. Today went band chalet. Kitchen hot sticky messy. Table dirty. Played Monopoly cards. Fried chicken yummy. Fried rice tasty. We cooked them. Yays.

Slack. Haven't studied for maths test. And bio test. Oh noes.

I have a dream, a song to sing, to help me cope with anything.
I have a dream, a fantasy, to help me through reality.

2011 is not a year for dreaming! It's a year of working very hard!

I just discovered new homework...
Anyway, here's an excerpt from a book that I found made sense and struck a chord with me.

"...Or will they say, ... that my parents never forced me into doing law. I just read their minds, I guess. Besides, all my friends were doing it. It was the Singapore Dream.
Will they argue that it was some external ideology, the system, peer pressure, or the government, that compelled them to do as they did not want to do, think as they did not want to think or feel as they did not want to feel? Will they lament that nothing would ever change in Singapore, or say that making the change was up to the government, or that they were too afraid to 'fight for what they believe in'...?"

I think this bombards the reader quite a lot but personally I really thought like that...last time, sometime in secondary school. I thought that not doing an 'elite job' next time was going to be a disgrace and so I limited my choices.

Me: "I fat already!!"
Bro: "You mean now then you know ah."
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Today was yet another day of pigging out, I think my tummy's getting rounder and the weighing scale is wailing louder whenever I step down from it.

Was watching the countdown on new year's eve. Felt a brief sense of loss when the countdown ended, like I wanted to clutch at 2010 but it was slipping away 8(
But what must come has already come, so we must face it, like how we eat horrible things like octopuses and snails and declare them delicious.
But 2010 was really a good year, a different year. It might not have been very outstanding but I think it taught me more than I learnt in the previous years.

Had thirteener lunch today. A few hours of sitting down together to a meal was enough to bring my mind back to old times.
Then went window shopping, and ate ice cream (yays).

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b3Gb69rVZ9Y Fits the mood now.