So distracted, so distracted...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E46BhMIRujI&NR=1 ! Go watch! Haha! Not to mention the fact that the guy in the audience provides some cute gay relief. :)
Oh apparently the character who's singing is gay. (not the actor)
Still doing KI research... D:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e1_B9FCZJMA&feature=channel this is good too.
Oh no computer over-usage syndrome D:
*attempts to concentrate*
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Monday, December 27, 2010
Choosing
The present is so transient...It disappears and comes again every millisecond. And what disappears is stored in our neurons as a memory.
But memories are so intangible. There is no way of telling them apart from imagination, you won't know until you realize that you remembered them wrongly.
The future is also inaccessible, and it is more of imagination than the past is.
Only the present is within our reach.
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Anyway this is the gist of what I read in a book. Haha. The book is called The Glass Room by Simon Mawer. A very deep book, I think I haven't fully understood it yet and I should revisit it again next time.
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Today was really and truly my last day at attachment. Keyed in some data. Before that we met the technicians and had a little chat with one of them, called A. A is smart, practical and confident. He is juggling work and studies at the moment because he's studying for a degree in public health (if I didn't remember wrongly). I think he is the most chatty technician and also the most interesting to chat with. The others are really cheerful and friendly. Actually all people are, only if you know how to hit them on the right nerve and befriend them.
Anyway, this guy was telling A that he won't study ophthalmology next time because he is not good enough. And A said, Why not? If you want something just try for it and you'll be able to get it! If you don't try you'll never get it.
These aren't his exact words, I can't remember them because what struck me more was the way he said it-- there was a definite certainty in his voice. So much certainty and confidence that till now I still feel like I can do anything I want to as long as I set my mind to it. I can even get my flabby body to conquer Mount Everest, as long as I have the determination. (But no thanks.)
To add to the effect, there was something comic, and something close to mockery in his voice. I think he didn't intend to mock. I think it was his accent that did it. And a funny eyebrow movement. Haha.
Such strong determination can help us overcome our biological limitations. It is shown here in an extension of my little recount: A suggested to the guy that he could be a pilot. The guy said, nope, it's out of the question because I wear spectacles. A then said, Then you can go for Lasik!
This little anecdote might have bored you, but to me it was the inspiration of the day.
It's really like what Dumbledore teaches us. What defines your future is not your capabilities or your innate biological limitations, but your choices. As for your choices, it's really up to you how you define your parameters: how you limit yourself to certain choices, and how you don't limit yourself.
All this choosing needs is a little more time, for some people, so I don't want to believe in cramming my portfolio with H3s and CIPs, to get some diploma, or some scholarship (although I wouldn't say no to one). All I want for next year is for me to lead a life outside school, and try to inject more meaning into my academic existence.
Okay this paragraph is a sidetrack. But what I've thought about is all up there already...
And this D, he comes from the same school as us. From what he says it seems like he regrets being associated with an institution of academic prestige. I'm not saying he hates the place, in fact he told us himself that the school gave him the best schooling experiences and really fun times, basically. But he has a disregard for academic prestige: I think he thinks it's not all there is to a person, and what the school does is measure people up in exactly those terms, those academic terms, and defines students that way.
I remember my brother saying that medicine, and other courses, are sometimes chosen because they are courses associated with the elite. And after leaving schools, elite students don't know where else to go to besides those places associated with the elite, so they sign up for courses like these, like medicine. And they don't enjoy themselves...as much as somebody who signs up because he loves the job. I know somebody like that...it's a certain doctor whom I don't visit anymore...
But I'm not saying that this D chose medicine for prestige, I don't think he did. Somehow you can tell when a person is working for money and when a person is working to live.
Although the distinction between money and life is really blurred. But you know what I mean.
But memories are so intangible. There is no way of telling them apart from imagination, you won't know until you realize that you remembered them wrongly.
The future is also inaccessible, and it is more of imagination than the past is.
Only the present is within our reach.
------
Anyway this is the gist of what I read in a book. Haha. The book is called The Glass Room by Simon Mawer. A very deep book, I think I haven't fully understood it yet and I should revisit it again next time.
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Today was really and truly my last day at attachment. Keyed in some data. Before that we met the technicians and had a little chat with one of them, called A. A is smart, practical and confident. He is juggling work and studies at the moment because he's studying for a degree in public health (if I didn't remember wrongly). I think he is the most chatty technician and also the most interesting to chat with. The others are really cheerful and friendly. Actually all people are, only if you know how to hit them on the right nerve and befriend them.
Anyway, this guy was telling A that he won't study ophthalmology next time because he is not good enough. And A said, Why not? If you want something just try for it and you'll be able to get it! If you don't try you'll never get it.
These aren't his exact words, I can't remember them because what struck me more was the way he said it-- there was a definite certainty in his voice. So much certainty and confidence that till now I still feel like I can do anything I want to as long as I set my mind to it. I can even get my flabby body to conquer Mount Everest, as long as I have the determination. (But no thanks.)
To add to the effect, there was something comic, and something close to mockery in his voice. I think he didn't intend to mock. I think it was his accent that did it. And a funny eyebrow movement. Haha.
Such strong determination can help us overcome our biological limitations. It is shown here in an extension of my little recount: A suggested to the guy that he could be a pilot. The guy said, nope, it's out of the question because I wear spectacles. A then said, Then you can go for Lasik!
This little anecdote might have bored you, but to me it was the inspiration of the day.
It's really like what Dumbledore teaches us. What defines your future is not your capabilities or your innate biological limitations, but your choices. As for your choices, it's really up to you how you define your parameters: how you limit yourself to certain choices, and how you don't limit yourself.
All this choosing needs is a little more time, for some people, so I don't want to believe in cramming my portfolio with H3s and CIPs, to get some diploma, or some scholarship (although I wouldn't say no to one). All I want for next year is for me to lead a life outside school, and try to inject more meaning into my academic existence.
Okay this paragraph is a sidetrack. But what I've thought about is all up there already...
And this D, he comes from the same school as us. From what he says it seems like he regrets being associated with an institution of academic prestige. I'm not saying he hates the place, in fact he told us himself that the school gave him the best schooling experiences and really fun times, basically. But he has a disregard for academic prestige: I think he thinks it's not all there is to a person, and what the school does is measure people up in exactly those terms, those academic terms, and defines students that way.
I remember my brother saying that medicine, and other courses, are sometimes chosen because they are courses associated with the elite. And after leaving schools, elite students don't know where else to go to besides those places associated with the elite, so they sign up for courses like these, like medicine. And they don't enjoy themselves...as much as somebody who signs up because he loves the job. I know somebody like that...it's a certain doctor whom I don't visit anymore...
But I'm not saying that this D chose medicine for prestige, I don't think he did. Somehow you can tell when a person is working for money and when a person is working to live.
Although the distinction between money and life is really blurred. But you know what I mean.
Friday, December 24, 2010
Merry Christmas Eve!
I don't actually celebrate Christmas, but it has sort of become an international festival already, and since it's a day of giving thanks, I would like to thank...
(in no particular order)
My dear friends, for being my dear friends, and letting me feel like I'm a part of your life even when we are miles apart geographically! (Singapore is quite a few miles long)
The people on attachment with me at NUH, for being such a fun bunch. Holiday life wouldn't have been so fun without them.
My section-mates in band, who aren't what you would call very outspoken, or outgoing, but who have been faithfully attending every section outing! It has been fun eating/walking around with them, because I enjoy talking with them. And they are really nice people to be around. I admire some people who take the initiative to call for outings and share presents for every occasion all the time.
And of course my dear family, my mum, my bro, and my aunts and uncle too, for being my dear family.
Shall recall snippets of this week, since I don't want to do anything else and I'm so sleepy.
Went for Classiques, Philharmonic Youth Orchestra's performance, at Esplanade! All the songs were very nice, especially Gustav Mahler's song (forgot name.), and the one about Casanova. The Christmas song was nice too! :D
And today I went into the Operating Theatres to watch the doctor do some eye surgery, specifically putting a new lens into the patient's eye. The first impression I had when I went in was horror, because the eye was really bloody and red. Got transfixed by the monitor (which was connected to a camera/magnifier/microscope thingy to blow up the eye, so that the surgeons and nurses could see the eye in detail).
Not a job I would like to do.
Went for a lot of band things this week, to celebrate a section-mate's birthday, to prepare and go for band exchange, and to watch Classiques. Won't be seeing band people until 4th or 5th Jan and 6 Jan probably, because we have band chalet then!
Now that attachment is over (except that I have to go back on Monday again T.T), I should plan my time properly and make sure I really finish my homework! D:
Dreading 2011 and not wanting 2010 to end.
And I've fully come to terms with the fact that a new school term is going to start.
And a lot of people I mentioned in this post won't see this post, or this blog at all, but it's okay, because giving thanks is actually partly selfish. Besides expressing gratitude it also helps to lighten my mind...it works like a Pensieve...
I don't actually celebrate Christmas, but it has sort of become an international festival already, and since it's a day of giving thanks, I would like to thank...
(in no particular order)
My dear friends, for being my dear friends, and letting me feel like I'm a part of your life even when we are miles apart geographically! (Singapore is quite a few miles long)
The people on attachment with me at NUH, for being such a fun bunch. Holiday life wouldn't have been so fun without them.
My section-mates in band, who aren't what you would call very outspoken, or outgoing, but who have been faithfully attending every section outing! It has been fun eating/walking around with them, because I enjoy talking with them. And they are really nice people to be around. I admire some people who take the initiative to call for outings and share presents for every occasion all the time.
And of course my dear family, my mum, my bro, and my aunts and uncle too, for being my dear family.
Shall recall snippets of this week, since I don't want to do anything else and I'm so sleepy.
Went for Classiques, Philharmonic Youth Orchestra's performance, at Esplanade! All the songs were very nice, especially Gustav Mahler's song (forgot name.), and the one about Casanova. The Christmas song was nice too! :D
And today I went into the Operating Theatres to watch the doctor do some eye surgery, specifically putting a new lens into the patient's eye. The first impression I had when I went in was horror, because the eye was really bloody and red. Got transfixed by the monitor (which was connected to a camera/magnifier/microscope thingy to blow up the eye, so that the surgeons and nurses could see the eye in detail).
Not a job I would like to do.
Went for a lot of band things this week, to celebrate a section-mate's birthday, to prepare and go for band exchange, and to watch Classiques. Won't be seeing band people until 4th or 5th Jan and 6 Jan probably, because we have band chalet then!
Now that attachment is over (except that I have to go back on Monday again T.T), I should plan my time properly and make sure I really finish my homework! D:
Dreading 2011 and not wanting 2010 to end.
And I've fully come to terms with the fact that a new school term is going to start.
And a lot of people I mentioned in this post won't see this post, or this blog at all, but it's okay, because giving thanks is actually partly selfish. Besides expressing gratitude it also helps to lighten my mind...it works like a Pensieve...
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Yay this week is busy but fun. :)
How to readjust to school life next year?? D: I'm gonna slip into depression in January D: Figuratively.
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Man I just read something and it was just a phrase, like 3 words, and it demolished... a portion of the respect i had for someone...
Well but of course people are layered and multi-faceted and they are not defined by 3 words, so I'll ignore this.
How to readjust to school life next year?? D: I'm gonna slip into depression in January D: Figuratively.
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Man I just read something and it was just a phrase, like 3 words, and it demolished... a portion of the respect i had for someone...
Well but of course people are layered and multi-faceted and they are not defined by 3 words, so I'll ignore this.
Monday, December 20, 2010
Oh my I feel constipated. Really. In the most common sense of the word. It's a dull painful presence in left side of my abdomen. Urgh. I've eaten a slice of papaya and drunk a cup of water.
My brain activity has kind of ground to a halt. I think blogging might bring it back to life... then I can attempt my report... on glaucoma...
My thoughts are scattered today...my brain's data assimilating centre is not working...oughhh...
So, we all have our own ideals, of what the world should be...Or maybe not, we probably don't know yet because we (I) haven't seen much of the world.
And we also have our own ideals of what a person should be like... and we sometimes envision this person in the future, as maybe a bestest best friend, or a confidante, or the perfect spouse. Or we sometimes see all these qualities manifest in a person we already know, like our parents, or an elder relative, or a friend.
But most of the time all these ideals are not assimilated together in one person, or we find it hard to believe we can ever meet such a wonderful person in our lives, that's why we need heroes. Like Superman. Or Lai Wuji (^^). But heroes exist in reel life, and we cannot pin our hopes on fiction.
So we spot these ideals all over the place, in people we meet. Or sometimes we meet people who are entirely new (new people aren't that hard to find in my case) and they contribute to our list of ideals.
That's why we meet people. We are social creatures.
It does not do to stay in the house for...say...more than a week.
You know when you read books, the author sometimes describes the characters so well. Every change of expression.
She hastily rearranged her features.
His lip twitched. With anger I suppose.
A dark shadow crossed her eyes.
But. I mean! When you talk to people, can you really see all those things? Especially the last one. I wonder if it's possible to observe every change in expression of people around you... but I don't really want to try because I'd be classified as a weirdo before the conversation is up.
Sometimes I do catch a glimpse of an odd expression in the people I talk to. A moment of hesitation. Awkwardness. Uncertainty. Appraisal. A knowing look. And I wonder what they are thinking, for that moment.
Okay enough crapping bye. :)
Hmm. All these words I've used to describe expressions in people around me. Hmm I think they do reflect very well how people feel around me...
My brain activity has kind of ground to a halt. I think blogging might bring it back to life... then I can attempt my report... on glaucoma...
My thoughts are scattered today...my brain's data assimilating centre is not working...oughhh...
So, we all have our own ideals, of what the world should be...Or maybe not, we probably don't know yet because we (I) haven't seen much of the world.
And we also have our own ideals of what a person should be like... and we sometimes envision this person in the future, as maybe a bestest best friend, or a confidante, or the perfect spouse. Or we sometimes see all these qualities manifest in a person we already know, like our parents, or an elder relative, or a friend.
But most of the time all these ideals are not assimilated together in one person, or we find it hard to believe we can ever meet such a wonderful person in our lives, that's why we need heroes. Like Superman. Or Lai Wuji (^^). But heroes exist in reel life, and we cannot pin our hopes on fiction.
So we spot these ideals all over the place, in people we meet. Or sometimes we meet people who are entirely new (new people aren't that hard to find in my case) and they contribute to our list of ideals.
That's why we meet people. We are social creatures.
It does not do to stay in the house for...say...more than a week.
You know when you read books, the author sometimes describes the characters so well. Every change of expression.
She hastily rearranged her features.
His lip twitched. With anger I suppose.
A dark shadow crossed her eyes.
But. I mean! When you talk to people, can you really see all those things? Especially the last one. I wonder if it's possible to observe every change in expression of people around you... but I don't really want to try because I'd be classified as a weirdo before the conversation is up.
Sometimes I do catch a glimpse of an odd expression in the people I talk to. A moment of hesitation. Awkwardness. Uncertainty. Appraisal. A knowing look. And I wonder what they are thinking, for that moment.
Okay enough crapping bye. :)
Hmm. All these words I've used to describe expressions in people around me. Hmm I think they do reflect very well how people feel around me...
Friday, December 17, 2010
Hahahs today was quite a fun day. Started off really really boring though, I thought my brain had disappeared due to lack of use. Because today there were only a few patients and glaucoma patients are only a few of that few and those who fit the other criteria are a few of that few of that few.
But I really admire these free-spirited and cheerful people that I'm doing the attachment with. They seem to have no reservations shedding their guai-student image in public, they just let their hair down and enjoy themselves, in the right way. Even the staff at the hospital are charmed by how friendly they (we?) are and they also talk to us now.
The good student image has been overrated. Even though that's what I've been taught all my life. Behave yourself in public. Don't talk. Listen to them. Don't disgrace the school. So I grew up waiting for instructions and waiting for facial cues from adults. Do they want to talk to me? Do they think I'm a slacker? ...Things like that.
I suppose, on hindsight, this could be one of the differences they say there is between IP and non-IP students? But I don't want to be too sure, I'm sure these are stereotypes and stereotypes cannot be used to judge everyone.
The point is, it was quite fun in the afternoon because we started playing games, like concentration. :) and some odd form of scissors-paper-stone. :) And then we camwhored. Superbly unglam photographs on Facebook; my reputation has collapsed. Kay joking I'm sure photographs are just skin-deep... O:
I hope my life next year would not be confined to just school, and after saying this, I should take some action to make sure it happens.
Very nice song. If you're having holiday blues, listen to this, and go "I see the light!" :D
Soundtrack from Rapunzel (I See the Light) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uw6q5189kpc
Speaking of Rapunzel, I found it a really good movie. It was very touching. Not to mention the beautiful graphics. ^_^
But I really admire these free-spirited and cheerful people that I'm doing the attachment with. They seem to have no reservations shedding their guai-student image in public, they just let their hair down and enjoy themselves, in the right way. Even the staff at the hospital are charmed by how friendly they (we?) are and they also talk to us now.
The good student image has been overrated. Even though that's what I've been taught all my life. Behave yourself in public. Don't talk. Listen to them. Don't disgrace the school. So I grew up waiting for instructions and waiting for facial cues from adults. Do they want to talk to me? Do they think I'm a slacker? ...Things like that.
I suppose, on hindsight, this could be one of the differences they say there is between IP and non-IP students? But I don't want to be too sure, I'm sure these are stereotypes and stereotypes cannot be used to judge everyone.
The point is, it was quite fun in the afternoon because we started playing games, like concentration. :) and some odd form of scissors-paper-stone. :) And then we camwhored. Superbly unglam photographs on Facebook; my reputation has collapsed. Kay joking I'm sure photographs are just skin-deep... O:
I hope my life next year would not be confined to just school, and after saying this, I should take some action to make sure it happens.
Very nice song. If you're having holiday blues, listen to this, and go "I see the light!" :D
Soundtrack from Rapunzel (I See the Light) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uw6q5189kpc
Speaking of Rapunzel, I found it a really good movie. It was very touching. Not to mention the beautiful graphics. ^_^
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Monday, December 13, 2010
I miss everyone
We went to visit a junior in hospital today. He went for an operation. No details, I suppose this is confidential... Anyway it was really quite a sight to make your heart melt and pity him. I know pity isn't a good word, it means like the person is on a lower level than you, but I don't mean anything like that here. Probably sympathize. Okay. Yes. If I were closer to him, I would visit him everyday, but this doesn't mean anything, this is all talk...
Then I decided to go join the rest and watch them eat dinner ( by then I had eaten). Sometimes even though you know you aren't in the centre of attention, you aren't in the know, and you feel excluded from everyone else, it's not a reason to shut yourself off and turn away from the rest.
I think I've always been quite a self-absorbed person, and I didn't like anything that didn't include myself. Come to think of it, I grew up in really familiar and sheltered environments. At NYPS, my mum and my bro were there, so there wasn't much adjusting to do. At NYGH, almost all my primary school friends were there. But now, where I am, there's a whole new batch of people, new social circles, new activities, so I'm often thrown into new situations. I've often felt tongue-tied. I've often turned away, because all the newness was a bit too much for me.
But on the way home today I thought that life doesn't always have to centre around yourself. Technically it is your life, but it does not need to always have you as the main character. The main aim of social interactions, I suppose, is to learn about other people. And part of it would also be about fulfilling some social contract, that is to say, if you have signed up to be a part of that group, then you should try to immerse yourself in that group and its activities.
And by opening my eyes, my mind, I notice truly admirable traits about more people. Even though I might not be their close friend, but just an acquaintance, I could also admire them from afar. I could dislike them too, at the same time, because no one is perfect and everyone has preferences.
And then the world seems more pretty and life seems more worth living.
So in general, today wasn't my traditional idea of fun, but it was fun in another way x)
Attachment was truly boring to the 101%, because we have finished backing up data eons ago, and there were no glaucoma patients today. But I realized that the staff there are really friendly and they talk to us, so I will grab this chance to talk to them. Of course, people on attachment with me are also really sociable, so it makes communication a lot easier.
Man I do feel like I like band and everything else more, now that I've said that.
And I cannot stop thinking about Noel, it was one of the best experiences I've had, and it's all because all of you, my family and friends, came! :D
That's what I mean, see, when I say that the concert was far from perfect in my case, but it was the process that meant everything :)
I cannot believe Christmas is coming soon, because Christmas signifies the coming of 2011. 2011 sounds disgusting, it's going to be another landslide and tsunami of work and studying, and then I'll start to mope again and my new ambition will be to turn into an Eskimo in Antarctica.
I hope not though. One year of that is quite enough.
Speaking of 2011, I need to do my homework.
Manzxzxz I miss everyone. Yes, truly everyone, everyone that I've met, everyone I've talked to, with the exception of most teachers (sorry don't want to be mean), everyone, you you you you you arghhh I miss everyone 8(
I miss those little chat sessions, like those with my ex-classmates, those talks in class at 5 pm in the afternoon, those canteen talks, even the talking we did at OBS, in the cold, cold rain, where we stood in a circle and sang something together.
I also miss those times, when I managed to slip in a chat with some acquaintances. Acquaintances, not friends, yet (who knows?). Some of these chats were really pleasant. But they are not really imprinted in my mind, they have just melded themselves into a whir of smiling faces and warm feelings.
But there's such a thing as the SMS, and I spam message people when I feel bored, alone, yadah, or when I feel ridiculously like playing clown.
Oh yeah i like this too. 50 things before entering college. http://www.mitadmissions.org/topics/life/workplay_balance_at_mit/50_things.shtml :)
Then I decided to go join the rest and watch them eat dinner ( by then I had eaten). Sometimes even though you know you aren't in the centre of attention, you aren't in the know, and you feel excluded from everyone else, it's not a reason to shut yourself off and turn away from the rest.
I think I've always been quite a self-absorbed person, and I didn't like anything that didn't include myself. Come to think of it, I grew up in really familiar and sheltered environments. At NYPS, my mum and my bro were there, so there wasn't much adjusting to do. At NYGH, almost all my primary school friends were there. But now, where I am, there's a whole new batch of people, new social circles, new activities, so I'm often thrown into new situations. I've often felt tongue-tied. I've often turned away, because all the newness was a bit too much for me.
But on the way home today I thought that life doesn't always have to centre around yourself. Technically it is your life, but it does not need to always have you as the main character. The main aim of social interactions, I suppose, is to learn about other people. And part of it would also be about fulfilling some social contract, that is to say, if you have signed up to be a part of that group, then you should try to immerse yourself in that group and its activities.
And by opening my eyes, my mind, I notice truly admirable traits about more people. Even though I might not be their close friend, but just an acquaintance, I could also admire them from afar. I could dislike them too, at the same time, because no one is perfect and everyone has preferences.
And then the world seems more pretty and life seems more worth living.
So in general, today wasn't my traditional idea of fun, but it was fun in another way x)
Attachment was truly boring to the 101%, because we have finished backing up data eons ago, and there were no glaucoma patients today. But I realized that the staff there are really friendly and they talk to us, so I will grab this chance to talk to them. Of course, people on attachment with me are also really sociable, so it makes communication a lot easier.
Man I do feel like I like band and everything else more, now that I've said that.
And I cannot stop thinking about Noel, it was one of the best experiences I've had, and it's all because all of you, my family and friends, came! :D
That's what I mean, see, when I say that the concert was far from perfect in my case, but it was the process that meant everything :)
I cannot believe Christmas is coming soon, because Christmas signifies the coming of 2011. 2011 sounds disgusting, it's going to be another landslide and tsunami of work and studying, and then I'll start to mope again and my new ambition will be to turn into an Eskimo in Antarctica.
I hope not though. One year of that is quite enough.
Speaking of 2011, I need to do my homework.
Manzxzxz I miss everyone. Yes, truly everyone, everyone that I've met, everyone I've talked to, with the exception of most teachers (sorry don't want to be mean), everyone, you you you you you arghhh I miss everyone 8(
I miss those little chat sessions, like those with my ex-classmates, those talks in class at 5 pm in the afternoon, those canteen talks, even the talking we did at OBS, in the cold, cold rain, where we stood in a circle and sang something together.
I also miss those times, when I managed to slip in a chat with some acquaintances. Acquaintances, not friends, yet (who knows?). Some of these chats were really pleasant. But they are not really imprinted in my mind, they have just melded themselves into a whir of smiling faces and warm feelings.
But there's such a thing as the SMS, and I spam message people when I feel bored, alone, yadah, or when I feel ridiculously like playing clown.
Oh yeah i like this too. 50 things before entering college. http://www.mitadmissions.org/topics/life/workplay_balance_at_mit/50_things.shtml :)
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Noel = happy memory! :D
Really happy that my family and friends came! :D Thank you all of you!
Was quite reluctant to leave when the concert ended. Very amused by how the audience shouted encore 2 or 3 times. I think 3.
No concert can be perfect, except for maybe a concert by the Berlin Philharmonic, and it was far from perfect in my case, but I think my mistakes couldn't really be heard ;)
But it's the process that matters!
That's what I told my brother and a section mate.
Was quite nervous actually, at the start, before Spartacus. But everyone else didn't seem to have the same jitters as I did. But Pink Panther was really fun to do.
Looking forward to the next concert taking place next June! :)
Really happy that my family and friends came! :D Thank you all of you!
Was quite reluctant to leave when the concert ended. Very amused by how the audience shouted encore 2 or 3 times. I think 3.
No concert can be perfect, except for maybe a concert by the Berlin Philharmonic, and it was far from perfect in my case, but I think my mistakes couldn't really be heard ;)
But it's the process that matters!
That's what I told my brother and a section mate.
Was quite nervous actually, at the start, before Spartacus. But everyone else didn't seem to have the same jitters as I did. But Pink Panther was really fun to do.
Looking forward to the next concert taking place next June! :)
Friday, December 10, 2010
Eeek it's concert day tomorrow! It's the first concert I've had since P6 (? i forgot) okay it's quite unnerving.
Just being on stage and seeing the crowd is exhilarating enough already. I must keep my blood pressure low and breathe normally!
Today, we tried to master the art of playing the instrument and prancing around at the same time. Don't ask why. Only Noel concert-goers will find out why. :D
If erm uh anyone who reads this hasn't gotten a ticket and wants to come, though I highly doubt it, just come and buy tickets at the door!
HCI Cheng Yi Auditorium 7.30 pm.
It's never too late! It's only regret that comes too late!
Just being on stage and seeing the crowd is exhilarating enough already. I must keep my blood pressure low and breathe normally!
Today, we tried to master the art of playing the instrument and prancing around at the same time. Don't ask why. Only Noel concert-goers will find out why. :D
If erm uh anyone who reads this hasn't gotten a ticket and wants to come, though I highly doubt it, just come and buy tickets at the door!
HCI Cheng Yi Auditorium 7.30 pm.
It's never too late! It's only regret that comes too late!
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Hoho, back from cruise! Quite fun, ate a lot, the tours weren't very good, because of the traffic jams and the long-winded tour guide, food was good, place was nice. I can't stand it, facebook is not as active as it used to be...
Actually it was quite nice, not bringing my handphone onto the ship. Didn't keep checking it and twirling it around with my fingers, felt more relaxed. Should just chuck my handphone away for the rest of my life but I think that wouldn't be practical.
We are all geographical people, and we don't talk to the people far away from us, physically, as much as the people around us. Even though these people are our close friends. So I suppose the amount of talking one does isn't a measure of how many friends one has...
Like this poem says, some people talk and talk and make you want to cry. (PDD, last page, I think)And some people touch your hand and music fills the sky~
I'm such a lazy undisciplined ass because whenever I get out of the house and return in the late afternoon I don't feel like doing homework for the rest of the day, and I just slack off. And given that I will be doing that for the next 2.5 weeks, I have a lot to worry about >(
Anyway, I was doing a bit of thinking about next year and what I'm going to do after that. All this planning sounds really great, on the surface: When people asked me what I want to do after JC, I used to feel this ballooning inside me, like I was going to tell them something great, something noble, something that could save the world, and I would smile, and then somehow I would tell them, I don't know.
I think doing a H3 is wonderful-- it's not just that it will add to your portfolio if you get an A, it's also because you'll get to learn a lot of interesting stuff. But it's a huge burden. I know if you're really interested in something you should say, yes, it's a burden, but it's a sweet burden, things like that. On a more practical note, it's usually better to know your limits, as all well-meaning/discouraging people say, so I think I have decided to let it go, and go easy on myself and my white hair. I suppose one can never learn enough, but is it really wise to squeeze all that mugging into one short year?
This brings me to another point, and please stop reading if you have some place else to go, because I'm just going to ramble and garble on about myself.
I think I've cancelled medicine off my list for university courses.
Reason 1 being that I'm not up to standard, in the sense that I'm not a do-gooder. I think you need to have lots of CIP and hospital attachments for that, and I haven't done any of those, and it's not possible to squeeze all that into J2, unless I want all my hair to turn white from keeping late nights and running around.
Reason 2. Medicine (the course) is tough work and is too overwhelming for flimsy-minded people like me. By flimsy-minded, I mean, people who like to daydream, are not disciplined with their time, are fickle-minded, and spend quite a lot of time being confused. I'm not criticising myself. I quite like to daydream and ponder about things a lot.
And why do my relatives' faces turn into a grimace when I tell them medicine sounds interesting? Lol...
I suppose there are many other ways I could earn a decent living and help other people too, when I get out of school.
On a side note, band pracs are quite satisfying. 8]
Just that I don't mix around a lot, and I prefer to go away and spend time by myself when I find myself caught in social situations I feel uncomfortable in.
To each his (her) own.
Gonna watch 破天网 now 8]. Why oh why am I slacking *whacks self figuratively*
I suppose I am really lazy, although I'm also surprised that I haven't realized it earlier. Took 17 years of being lazy to realize what laziness was.
Actually it was quite nice, not bringing my handphone onto the ship. Didn't keep checking it and twirling it around with my fingers, felt more relaxed. Should just chuck my handphone away for the rest of my life but I think that wouldn't be practical.
We are all geographical people, and we don't talk to the people far away from us, physically, as much as the people around us. Even though these people are our close friends. So I suppose the amount of talking one does isn't a measure of how many friends one has...
Like this poem says, some people talk and talk and make you want to cry. (PDD, last page, I think)And some people touch your hand and music fills the sky~
I'm such a lazy undisciplined ass because whenever I get out of the house and return in the late afternoon I don't feel like doing homework for the rest of the day, and I just slack off. And given that I will be doing that for the next 2.5 weeks, I have a lot to worry about >(
Anyway, I was doing a bit of thinking about next year and what I'm going to do after that. All this planning sounds really great, on the surface: When people asked me what I want to do after JC, I used to feel this ballooning inside me, like I was going to tell them something great, something noble, something that could save the world, and I would smile, and then somehow I would tell them, I don't know.
I think doing a H3 is wonderful-- it's not just that it will add to your portfolio if you get an A, it's also because you'll get to learn a lot of interesting stuff. But it's a huge burden. I know if you're really interested in something you should say, yes, it's a burden, but it's a sweet burden, things like that. On a more practical note, it's usually better to know your limits, as all well-meaning/discouraging people say, so I think I have decided to let it go, and go easy on myself and my white hair. I suppose one can never learn enough, but is it really wise to squeeze all that mugging into one short year?
This brings me to another point, and please stop reading if you have some place else to go, because I'm just going to ramble and garble on about myself.
I think I've cancelled medicine off my list for university courses.
Reason 1 being that I'm not up to standard, in the sense that I'm not a do-gooder. I think you need to have lots of CIP and hospital attachments for that, and I haven't done any of those, and it's not possible to squeeze all that into J2, unless I want all my hair to turn white from keeping late nights and running around.
Reason 2. Medicine (the course) is tough work and is too overwhelming for flimsy-minded people like me. By flimsy-minded, I mean, people who like to daydream, are not disciplined with their time, are fickle-minded, and spend quite a lot of time being confused. I'm not criticising myself. I quite like to daydream and ponder about things a lot.
And why do my relatives' faces turn into a grimace when I tell them medicine sounds interesting? Lol...
I suppose there are many other ways I could earn a decent living and help other people too, when I get out of school.
On a side note, band pracs are quite satisfying. 8]
Just that I don't mix around a lot, and I prefer to go away and spend time by myself when I find myself caught in social situations I feel uncomfortable in.
To each his (her) own.
Gonna watch 破天网 now 8]. Why oh why am I slacking *whacks self figuratively*
I suppose I am really lazy, although I'm also surprised that I haven't realized it earlier. Took 17 years of being lazy to realize what laziness was.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
I'm a sinner, I didn't wish my friend happy birthday. 8( Is playing my lungs out on an instrument a good excuse for forgetting? >(
Going for cruise tomorrow :D Shall see if there are nice souvenirs? :)
Cruise means just eating a lot right? Because they chuck a bunch of restaurant vouchers when you book the cruise I think. Maybe I'll come back 10 kg heavier nooooooooo...
A new talent! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PZTsqmiOyRg Never mind he has a weird name, never mind he's 4 years younger than I am, he's better than Justin Bieber! :)
Going for cruise tomorrow :D Shall see if there are nice souvenirs? :)
Cruise means just eating a lot right? Because they chuck a bunch of restaurant vouchers when you book the cruise I think. Maybe I'll come back 10 kg heavier nooooooooo...
A new talent! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PZTsqmiOyRg Never mind he has a weird name, never mind he's 4 years younger than I am, he's better than Justin Bieber! :)
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