Disappointment, hope, what is it I am doing, where am I?

At the same time, gossip/complaints, very amusing, don't worry I know how to fend them off. :)

Also, disbelief. o_O?!

This is today!

Why hahhllooo!

I had CCA just now. I finally got to know what instrument I'll be playing in Band. It's the euphonium! Wikipedia:

The euphonium is a conical-bore, tenor-voiced brass instrument. It derives its name from the Greek word euphonos, meaning 'well-sounding' or sweet-voiced'.

Mmm. Sounds good.

But I don't sound good with the euphonium yet. :) I can play 1 low note and 1 high note, the rest are just lost in a muddle. I went to search euphonium on youtube-- there was this guy playing Flight of the Bumblebee on the euphonium. Hmm why is it that almost every professional brass instrument player performs Flight of the Bumblebee?

But I must say that the Flight of the Bumblebee is a nice song.

Am now on tenterhooks about NRP. I haven't received a single email from any professor. I think my application form got chucked away. :( Yes, for all 3 choices. ???

And I'm also considering Reach Cambridge. Course outlines sound interesting.

But should I focus on my studies instead?

Mmmm I don't feel like doing any work now. It's 12.08am. But I don't feel like sleeping either.

:D

Okay I'll copy cheryl and put a song here.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sJehiHtLvjI&feature=related :)

Very nice (English) song. Good to do homework with. :)

Oh okay it's called This is the Last Time by Keane.

Not trying to earn money, sadly. 8(

Lol I didn't even know that yesterday was B&J's free cone day. Not a particular fan of B&J's, but a fan of ice cream. Anyway I miss icecream alot because I haven't eaten it in a week or so. :( Because I have a flu.

Sleepy; off to do PW.

And congrats to Ares for winning Cross-country! :D

yay Ares owns everything.

Just popped over for a quick rant. Not supposed to be here, given the circumstances.

Chem fail. I do not know how it came to this. Was it my fault or was it theirs?

I don't think I should bother with blame.

Just get a move on. Because it's 12.45 am...

Time wasted over nothing. Nothing at all. I've never been so confused/frustrated while doing a group project.

I guess this is a warning for myself, about the many other group projects that are coming up. To play dictator, to be nit-picky about every single meeting detail. Because this is not secondary school anymore where I can work with my old friends with their working styles I find so comfortable to be with.

Am having a headache, feeling drained.

Even though I didn't do anything today except sit down and do some work.

Zzzzz.

I have so many whims and fancies, I don't know what I'm really passionate about.

Sometimes I think school moves too fast for us to be able to find ourselves.

Of course, school provides us with boundless opportunities.

Which, when used wrongly, turn us all into rats in a rat race.

(well, some of us only...)

Must remember that blind pursuit of whatever it is is a big no-no.

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Facebook is not good for your emotional health! The reason why I keep going to facebook to check out the live feed or anything else, other than facebook's games, is because there is always this nagging feeling of dissatisfaction left in me after looking at everyone else's stuff. Sigh...

Like the feeling of wanting more to see/listen to/etcetc.

I should stop this and have a good think about the benefits of being a social recluse.

All Facebook's fault that I saw Tahan's Gunung Ayam photos! Now I'm sorely tempted to go mountaineering...!!!

You think I can jump into their CCA now??

Okay methinks now I was being a tad anal that day. Lol. But I'm still quite annoyed.

I'm kind of looking forward to starting CCA. ^^

And I like my class, I think there are very humorous and accommodating people in there. I think I have to erase some of my preconceptions. >.<>

I can't write as well today because my brother is lolling on the floor waiting to use the computer and I don't feel easy because he has not bathed.

:D

My brother and my mum are worrying (a little; it hasn't reached sec 4 EOY's standard) about my lackadaisical attitude (heheheh this word is cute can't help using it) towards school work in general. It's fortunate to be the youngest in the family because I don't really have to worry about anyone else besides my "bleak-and-foggy-future" and on a more serious note, whether I treat my family well enough.

But that's not what I started out to say...

I think that what is most important is not to forget myself-- what I like to do, what I feel I can do. I should not excessively blame myself for any academical problems.

Aaaanyway...

I'm feeling excited about council elections :D watching videos of every candidate I know :) I kind of wish I had helped out with some campaign groups now!!!

I finally feel like posting today. :)

Anyway I was mumbling to myself in my mind today while in the toilet, which is a sure sign of distress because I usually complain to myself in my head only when I don't feel too happy about things.

Actually I was kind of emo just now (but I'm not now because I just watched jn's press conference. And then many other thoughts surfaced so I've forgotten any anger I felt.). I was kind of disappointed with a certain group's treatment of their newcomers. If people have made an effort to stay back after school till 7.30 pm for tryouts, I really think all of them deserve a satisfactory reply, at least a reply which corresponds with what the tryouts were trying to achieve. I think "you have no group" is definitely a very irresponsible reply. No explanations, no further details, just "wait until there's a vacancy". What was the point of calling us up for tryouts, if even simple decisions like this cannot be made?

Oh I censored myself, obviously.

And I shall not complain more because it doesn't make sense that I should be complaining about a group that I'm going to stay with for long.

Okay this is the emo bit. Now it doesn't weigh so much on my mind.

Okay, about Jack Neo. I read somebody's blog post about him. This blogger said that he feels sympathy for the guy. Because he's a celebrity, he has this added burden of having to admit his follies publicly. It's as if he owes Singapore an apology, and why should he? Said the blogger.

Firstly I don't think it was done for the apology. More for the sake of news, for the sake of providing gossip material for any reader of the newspapers. For the news value la. No one (except maybe devoted fans) really cares if he's remorseful or not. They just want to get more gossip fodder.

And secondly, it's not like he was forced to attend the press conference, right.

I wonder how the children feel. 8(

:)

This week, especially the end of this week, has been especially taxing. Because I had a mild case of diarrhoea, so I didn't eat, so I felt sleepy the whole of today. And I've been sleeping at 12 plus/1 plus these two days. At least for these two days I think. Sign of bad time management.

And I'm getting worried about my performance in school because I haven't had a very good start. :S

I have a lot of things I want to do. I remember them in school, when somebody mentions something that rings a bell in my head. And then I forget! @@

Anyway, I just remembered what happened two days ago. We had a mini-thirteener gathering! At Claire and Ying's bench. :D Was just wandering around with Joey when we spotted Claire and Ying. Then we were joined by Elsa. Then Pling. Then Jiayun. Might have gotten the order wrong. But yes. Roughly like that. :D Then we had a thirteener chat! Which for some amusing reason involved math grades. Hahah.

My spirits automatically lift when I chat with any thirteener :D Comfortable spot of familiarity in a strange land :) yay.

And I also have nice teachers, like both of the biology tutors (yes, both of them, though they have very different styles hehehhh) and chem tutor and math tutor (though math brings a bad memory with it) and the JXP teacher who never fails to recognize us along corridors and up staircases :D

Hmm, anyone going for the nyps gathering?

The end!

Have a happy mugging holiday! :D

Had a mild panic attack at about 9 pm when I realized that I completely forgot about Chem homework, and my computer couldn't connect to the Internet for half an hour... !

But uhm since i'm here that means I've recovered already.

Anyway uh... I came here to keep my blog alive.

1) I need to polish my time management skills.

Yep that's about it :D

Class outing was fun... at the start. Then after that I felt sleepy and starting sitting around. Plus part of the choir came and performed for us-- they sang a lullaby, so that's why. -__-

Am now doing my PW homework, not rushing mind you, it's too late for that. Speaking of which, it is really late. I need to go get my beauty sleep soon.