Blogging on the mrt. (Y)
I feel so awake despite only having 5.5 hours of sleep, and 5 hours of sleep for the past few days. And its only 7.40 am. It must be a concoction that my mum makes for me to drink-- wolf berry and ginseng strips. :)
Yesterday after lesson I was feeling really sick and tired. Our prof grilled the other group and picked on lots of words they used, and told us that lawyers should e able to defend every word they use. True, but I felt really worried for the presenting group as they got whacked left right and centre. Then the prof asked who's next week's presenting group, and my group and I reluctantly raised our hands. She said, okay, you have to learn to fake enthusiasm a bit better; it's just like that, we have to do it. Hurhurh. I guess she makes a lot of sense, but a lot of the time people who make sense use words that are really jarring. Anyway besides that presentation, I still have 2 more presentations and 1 report to hand up next week, and the thought of it yesterday after lesson more or less crushed whatever positive feeling I had.
She said, face it, there's no such thing as happy law students and happy lawyers. Very strangely I felt slightly better after she said that. I guess that's just the truth.
And in addition, I went  for dinner with my classmates after lesson, and that cheered me up significantly.
After that I went for samba despite much grumbling about how much time it's taking up. Kind of cheered me up too.
If there's no such thing as a happy law student, then I am truly glad for my friends, my good friends, and my drum. Without these, I think the Marsha or marshy  you've known will not be here anymore. I would probably be lost in the no-man's-land of sanity.
But one thing bothered me yesterday-- why are some people so combative? Can't they learn how to give and take, and respect people who are just trying to do their job, instead of bitching about and trying to harness people to support your stand? Come on, that's just a plain waste of my time and mental energy. I don't take part in such matters.
Also, yesterday I learnt that there is no such thing as somebody I truly dislike. I used to really dislike this irritating guy but he was really decent to me yesterday, albeit as distant as ever. But in such situations I don't value closeness as much as I value decent behaviour.
Right. So that's an update of what happened yesterday.
GOOD LUCK TO MYSELF AD FULL STEAM AHEAD AND NO SLACKING OFF. HA!!!

Ah Nan the getai singer has passed away. I shall take a moment to say that he lived quite a respectable life. Although his life was not free of crime, he showed that he had a kind heart and helped people out whenever it was in his capacity to do so.
And look how much respect and love he has gotten from the people he has met in his life-- just look at how many people turned up at his wake.
People respect you for your character and not for your ability.
Words to live by!
Translated into my own words, I guess I would say that this means I'll try my best in whatever I do, because I want to put in my best effort for the people around me. And I don't have to get a perfect GPA to be a good lawyer-- if I become a lawyer in future. I just need to want to...help my clients. And probably uphold justice in the meantime...
Today was a frown-inducing day because I wasn't very prepared for the lesson. And the prof probed us with lots of mind-boggling questions. My mind drifted to my busy busy schedule.
But the day got better when I cracked a short joke and my classmates laughed, and I laughed cos they laughed. And the prof smiled at our laughter. Laughter works wonders. I should think up more jokes.
And then it got better because I ate lunch with friends.
It got better again when I joined my friends in the gsr.
Then I felt more accomplished after I met another friend to complete our discussion on a case.

Good.

Every time I close my eyes I can touch the colours around me 

Suddenly I realize everything I thought was impossible is here 

And my heart sings in a world so incredible 

And everything burns much brighter

Such pretty lyrics. :D Apparently this band's songs has been used in Twilight quite often. WHY? I shall reserve my judgement for the sake of the songs. 

What keeps me happy now are, in decreasing order

1. People

2. Food and sleep
3. Discovering new music like this one

4. Drums

5. Random bursts of mini- enlightenment attained from doing my readings (these seem to be getting sparser and sparser)

6. Hugging my soft toy

What doesn't make me happy, in decreasing order

1. Horribly tight deadlines

2. Unfriendly people

3. Lack of sleep

I realized that I probably am quite a pampered and self-entitled person. I guess a lot of people face the above 3 unpleasant factors so I shouldn't let it get me down too much.

Just realized that today I'm constantly looking for distractions, which makes me more impatient with myself, and then the cycle repeats, somehow. Urgh.
Distractions: Facebook (Now I have a love-hate relationship with it), food, sleep (because I was reading on the sofa), and now blogging.
Ultimatum: to finish this case by 6 pm! Which IS possible because I have literally spent the entire day on it.
Yesterday was, in general, quite a pleasant day.
Woke at 10 am (my definition of happiness) and did a minimal bit of studying. Went to school to meet C and C for lunch and satisfied my craving for food at the basement cafe. C had to wait quite a bit for me cos I took a bit of time to drag my ass out of the house. D: Good company and food cos I haven't had a meal with them in ages and ages! If not for the company I would have just settled for a bun for lunch at home. But it was cut short cos we all had cca.
Went for samba. It's really getting boring these days because we're preparing for the concert, so we keep rehearsing the same few songs. Secondly, I'm not very close to the people because a few of them seem to love ignoring me. Still, a few are fine and I chat with them. Vaguely annoyed at my schedule cos all my presentations and my concert rehearsals and the concert itself are all so close together. Good luck to myself, but somewhere in myself I know I'll manage fine...
Left right after cca and went for dinner with (another) C and L. I never knew we could talk so much! But it was good. It's a thousand times better than going for meals with my cca, which could get awkward.

I think what I should do now is stop complaining and get working!

There's a mismatch between living in my own thoughts and living with people. If I lived in my own world, everyone would do what I wanted them to. But living with people is totally opposite.
Haha, now you see the secret manipulative side of me. But that side of me doesn't ever manifest in real life. I think so.
Anyway, I feel half-glad that I joined my cca. And half-indifferent to it because... excitement wears off after a while.
Still addicted to that song by the paper kites! :))
I realise that my morale was really low this week. But I think it was a side-effect of waking at 6 am everyday. I took a nap yesterday and last night I slept 10 hours. Best day ever!!! Sleep really works wonders.

Mega bored. Shouldn't have signed up for random cip at woodlands! Cos I don't feel like staying in school or studying; I wanna go homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Now that I'm done with my woodlands CIP I think I need to say that the people were more interesting than usual. There was a feisty cheerful guy who was really chatty (he is in year 3), and another more serious guy who was going to study law (in UK). I felt so young and clueless standing with them. The serious guy was very clear about the various legal professions because I heard him talking with the lawyer about what paralegals do. I don't really have a clue what professions I can go into next time. 'Lawyer' is probably quite broad so it doesn't qualify as an ambition. But it's okay I can take my time I suppose. Smell the roses along the way~

Nice song, yes? :)

I remember during law camp my senior said that uni life will be very much like work life. I can't really verify his statement because I haven't truly experienced a working life. But I see what he means because I observe that nobody really gives a heck about what other commitments you have and what personal issues you have. If you're in school you better do your stuff well.
Yeah.
Vaguely excited about school.
Sometimes it feels exciting to be challenged.