I'm in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labour has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we'll ever have, and I am in love with you.
(TFIOS, Augustus)

On this point, I can really learn from Augustus, when it comes to me and finding stuff to occupy myself with. I can't sit by and wait for my internship to arrive. I can't not bother to explore stuff on the net and learn about meaningful stuff just because it's not going to help me in my studies. So what I do this holidays will come to naught but I would still do it anyway... okay the link is rather tenuous. I recall a time in my teens when I was a avid reader, curious about the world... I don't think my teen self would have recognized the bummer I am now.