Aghhh I'm melting into a puddle after watching 怒火街头. :3 The logic of the last episode was rather questionable but the values it stood for were really awesome and touching. AND I love how my favourite actor shows emotions on his face really well. I mean, just a slight shift in his expression can tug at my heartstrings. :') I love him so much, he's so expressive. :D Actually Myolie Wu's really good too, I can read emotions in her eyes as well. :D THAT'S what I call good acting.
SIGH

Takeaways:
1. I don't care about raising my GPA anymore. I will just care enough about my studies to make sure I'm doing something useful at school, i.e. learning something. It sounds very high-minded, and maybe I'm saying this because I'm melting into a puddle right now, and it will be very easy to forget this, but I'll do my best to remind myself when the next semester starts, for the sake of my sanity and my happiness.
It could be really hard for some people to understand where I'm coming from because it may just sound like I'm licking my own wounds. But I observe, in almost everyone around me, the struggle between accepting one's GPA and finding self-worth. It's a painful process. I don't think I'm saying it just to comfort myself for my shitty performance at school. I'm saying it also because... I think it is a good thing to believe in. It helps me delve beyond appearances. All students work extremely hard, some probably harder than others, but there's no denying that everyone tries hard to learn. But more than once, students have been unsure why they have received a certain grade-- yes, we know our mistakes, but we don't know what mistakes others have made and why they have scored higher or lower. There is also no time for us to find out all the mistakes that have been made. I'm not saying anything against anyone but it's just a hard truth that everyone is bell-curved. So it's important to go beyond appearances and seek the educational value within.
Sure, the world doesn't and will never agree with me, and I'll be laughed at if I parade my views, because my prospects will depend on whether I make it past a certain cut-off mark to secure an interview/secure a job. But at least with this thought, I know what I'm doing with myself.

2. I thought about my failed interview at the other school and I really wonder if the correct answer to that question was really a better answer. In fact for a long time I've been thinking about that question and I wonder what message they were trying to convey to me. I don't think I gave them the wrong answer. Values matter more than what we would eventually learn at school.

3. School is less important than I think it is. I mean, I still need it to get the all-important degree, and I need to pull up my socks so I can scrape by 2 more sucky years, but I shouldn't cry over it, or be jealous over it, which I have done quite often. I know it's unlikely that I'll stick to this 100% in future but let this be another reminder. Mum ever told me that it's not worth it to cry over school, and I accepted her advice even while knowing that I'm not always strong enough to follow it. And I will never exactly know whether I have a) tried my best but failed anyway, or b) slacked off/been stupid and got my just desserts. But well, some questions have no answer and it's also very important for me to keep moving ahead and stop mulling over pointless questions, which is another bad habit of mine.

4. I love holidays cos I can stay up late to watch HK dramas and blog about random crap.

5. Kevin Cheng is haawwt. :D Even if he is 24 years older than I am. (hey, that's exactly 2 zodiac cycles)

lovely song wheee