Shall get a post in first before I scan my computer for viruses again... I still can't open the messages in my hotmail.

I had a rather apathetic and uncomfortable afternoon today. The two words sort of contradict but that describes quite accurately how I felt. Not going to elaborate...

There was also a photoshoot and I was skulking around the edges of the really tightly-knitted block of people, trying to find a way to get myself within the range of the camera... And a JC girl pulled me in and exclaimed that I should just pick a spot now and "don't be shy!". That kind of startled me. I actually feel like being shy is in our school's blood. Then when we graduate we get out of it. Because...

Exams are now over but there's another smaller wave heading towards us, which is of course Chinese O' Levels. But this one actually feels more deadly than the enormous one we just endured because it's scheduled to be right in the middle of nowhere, and it's so easy to overlook it and think that it is just another test.

Eek.

Must study Chinese!

The biggest challenge now is to persuade my brain that it's not the holidays yet and that it should get cracking on Chinese ASAP.

Meanwhile I'm trying to read as much as possible because I haven't touched a book for the past month or so.

And I'm rediscovering the joys of listening to my iPod, while studying. Is that a good thing?

Yes it is.

...

Oh yes. That day I was listening to We're all in this together and all the lower secondary memories flooded back...

8))

Okay, what do I say.

It's the start of post-eoy freedom and I'm fangirling watching youtube videos of Joseph Gordon-Levitt :) He looked so cute as a teen! (He got himself a beard at some point in time :/ )

What can I say about myself, man.

And Carla Bruni sang that French song in 500 days of summer.

It's odd how I got more kick out of surfing the net during the exam period but not as much now...

Although I can say that I do feel slightly more relaxed/ relieved now.

Not much of a difference, after 4 years of such emotional turmoil...

:D

Enjoy your freedom!

Even though I've been complaining and ranting about how exams are degrading and bad for learning, they'll still come back and try to bite our heads off.

And do I really look emo when I stone...?

Since I'm here, I shall say that I'm currently for the last paper! Probably didn't need to say this already.

And I'm in a second wave of fangirling-- Lifehouse <3> :D

Have come out of the melancholy reverie! Yeah. Hahah.

Nothing much has happened today, of course, except that I decided to come out of the melancholy reverie.

And I ate pizza bread and cake for breakfast and I helped do some housework and I read some papers and mags around the house and I ate Bixie's cereal for lunch and I studied physics and I dozed off and I went for a power shower and I studied physics again.

(I think my blog deserves more worthy content.

But never mind, it can be a rant blog for now. Until I get better... ideas.)

8))

I love reading other people's blogs.

Opens up new perspectives, provides an alternative side to my otherwise extremely protected and narrow life.

Seriously, school doesn't offer anything other than knowledge. That sounds ironic. But when I read (blogs) about social workers and all that, about disasters in other countries (lots of them this month), I feel like I'm very sheltered, pampered, or any other synonym of these words you can think of.

This quote might bring my point across better:

The only thing that interferes with my learning is my education.--- Albert Einstein.

I can imagine people reading this and laughing at this quote. If you say so, quit school and go sweep the roads, lah!

But I'm not going to explain myself on this note further.

Shall just leave this hanging, because I haven't actually thought much about this. In fact, this post probably won't make a lot of sense to most of you.

:D

I really do admire the people who have ambitions, no matter what they are.

Cause childhood/teenage dreams/ambitions usually turn out to be something which you want to do for the good of other people, right...?

Yeahhh.

Don't think I actually had a childhood dream.

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Actually, what I REALLY SHOULD BE DOING NOW IS STUDYING PHYSICS.

Shall overcome garfield-like inertia now and move to physics.

The Girl in the White Uniform

I am the unnoticed, the unnoticeable girl,
The girl who always stands next to you during assembly,
The girl who was the colour of the white-washed wall, the sound of
everyday chatter,

The girl who might have exchanged a few forced words with you.
I am the girl trying to find her place in class,
Too hurried and worried to see and smell and touch:
The girl who is patient too long and obeys too much
And wishes too softly and seldom.

I am the girl they call the nation's future.

I am the easily led, the spoon-fed,
The tool for another person's success,
The safe-and-sound,
Stone-for-a-statue, pebble-round.

There you go, adapted from A.S.J. Tessimond's poem in PDD.

Not trying to be a budding poet or whatever academically-related, I just thought it would be fun putting in 'girl' instead of 'man'.

Deleted a chunk of the poem instead of editing it, because I couldn't think of better replacements.

I hope I didn't just insult the whole of the literary world by mutilating another person's poem...

And I'm ... not... insinuating anything at anyone.

Just for light reading...

And because physics is...

still on its way to my head.