Blogging on the train again. Life sucks. At least for this week. But for now it really sucks.

Maybe I was exaggerating about being in code red, because this CNY was quite relaxing. :)
Meanwhile here's a song that I'm addicted to:

HAHA HOW SCREWED AM I

I need to 

a) do my legal memo

but before I do my legal memo, I realize I need to know what's going on in damages II, which I did not read because I was having my presentations.

b) study for tort

but before I study for tort I need to catch up on my tort readings, which I did not do because I was having my presentations.

ALL IN A WEEK

Okay, code red again, good luck.

After a really busy 1st half of the week I think I slacked off the 2nd half of the week. :( And now I'm faced with quite a lot of work...
NO SLACKING! CNY ain't a holiday, it's a time to catch up on work and finish my assignment.
Word of the week: DISCIPLINE.

Samba is fun but the trainings are so often. Sigh. Esp since the concert is coming. But overall I would say that the benefits of joining outweigh the costs. I wouldn't be such a happy person if I weren't in it. And I wouldn't have learnt so much about... people and drums.

Really... Here's a heartfelt word of caution to myself to stop slacking!
Stop.
Slacking.
Start.
Work.

"Don't give up what you want the most, for what you want now."
i.e. marsha don't give up your studies for what you want now which is lots of slack time!

Sitting in a coffee bean near my house now and enjoying red velvet cake and hot chocolate, because I wasn't hungry enough to join my friends for lunch! Although on the way here I got really hungry. And sleepy.

Thought through a number of things on the way to coffee bean....realized that whenever I feel bad, I just have to remember that there are much worse things in life, as my brother said. And I also have to be more generous to myself and not keep sticking to the same old routine of samba study sleep eat study lessons and so on! And if I'm more generous I tend to be a happier person. 

Today I decided not to go for lunch with classmates in the end cos... I guess I decided that I needed some time alone. Some time spent not doing anything at all! So I decided to give myself a treat... it can be a treat for finishing 3 presentations in 2 days. I realize I have the tendency to change my mind at the last minute, but ... whatever. No ill intention! 

Presentations and strict profs really do make me grow up. Yesterday I got chided by my prof during my presentation, because of random little things-- she did warn us that she was going to be come down hard on us. But... after the presentation I just shrugged it off because some people just like to be mean to others to help them learn. The prof did say that she's so harsh because she feels that she's a gateway-- she keeps out the people who aren't good enough to be lawyers. Hmm... sounds noble BUT ominous. What a paradox. Anyway after the presentation my groupmate gave me a cute face and a thumbs-up. Hahaha! :) So it made me feel good. 

Anyway yesterday I also realized that samba is a huge factor that keeps me going in school. And even if I'm not super close to the people, I don't think it matters at all. 

I don't know how my classmates are so driven to go for moots. Just finishing my readings and getting decent grades is sufficient for me already. o_o Different things make different people tick. 

AND I need to burn midnight oil more times because I'm behind in my readings. I've been switching off for the lessons this week because I have no idea what the prof is saying. SIGH.

I miss all my friendsss. Will arrange meet ups soon. Or already in the process of arranging. Except for friends who are overseas. 

Right!! So my major presentations are over. :)
WAHAHAHAHAHAH
But I realized that the state of my readings is very bad because I'm lagging behind by about 2 weeks for tort and 1 week for contract. So it's out of the frying pan and into the fire maybe.
Got chided (but not very badly) by my prof during my presentation, and felt quite sad about it after. But cheered up significantly during samba and now I'm thinking it's all just part of a ploy to make me learn.
Cca person just said in our whatsapp chat that I and another girl wear a mask to cca. i.e. we don't bitch. Well... I just am not bitchy. And my friend too, that's why we get along. Though I must qualify the term 'bitch'-- I don't think it means anything derogatory in this context, it just means... really opinionated and out-spoken.

Today the head announced that we would be going to Brazil end of this year. 

OH YEAHHHHH

I honestly hope it stays that way and they don't change their plans or whatever. 

COOL

Imagine going to Brazil to play samba.

WOOHOOO

I guess I will stick it out. 

And endure sleepless nights.

Like tonight.

I WILL NOT SLEEP TONIGHT