In lieu of school, I shall remind myself to always be myself and be at peace with myself and everyone around me.
And to try to bring up my GPA.
PEACEEEEE

Some scattered late night opinions. I just can't sleep right now. Given that I just came back from 2 days of busking, it's gonna be very samba-related. But I can say for sure that joining samba was one of the best decisions of my (young) life. Other decisions just pale in comparison, they seem to be chance occurrences compared to this. Because I think samba has made a huge print on my life, that's why. Sometimes I don't enjoy it because... just because. Sometimes it majorly gets in the way of other more important stuff; sometimes I feel uncomfortable. And these negative moments make me declare that we live in a deeply superficial world and in graver instances they have thrown me into existential crises. But I've learnt to see beyond that. What's more important is
a) recognizing that you're just a very tiny cog in the universe (or maybe you aren't even a cog; you're just a particle floating about)
b) contributing what you have anyway
c) knowing who you are and why you make certain decisions
d) having explosions of fun at the same time

^_^

Somehow, feeling small makes me feel very carefree. I can do anything I please. Or, I feel infinite. And the world around me will dance and clap and smile with me. Because everyone loves feeling free.

Here's one of those nights where I feel like every particle in me and around me is vibrating and singing with energy. (from a physics point of view, they are literally vibrating.) I can't sleep. All the energy is keeping me awake!
Why? Probably because there was so much awesomeness today: watched The Hobbit and then had samba after that. Awesomeness x 2. Not to forget comfortable company who watched Hobbit with me.
^_^
This is the life. Truly. :)

I love Tolkien. I love Peter Jackson. I love Legolas. I love Thorin Oakenshield. I love Bilbo Baggins. I love Bard. I love Gandalf. I love samba. I love everyone!

Don't just live. Live life as you want it to be. That would be synonymous with living life to its fullest, I think.

On a side note, I concede. I concede that my personality type is ISFP. which was the first ever result I got when I was in secondary school or something. Changed a lot over the years-- and this rings true of ISFPs, who are described as hard to know. ;) so that explains all these years of me trying to find out who I am and not being pleased with the descriptions I got with each personality type.
Not that it matters, I don't really give a hoot what type I am anymore.
Because what matters is not who I am (would anyone know it of themselves?) but what I want out of the sacred thing called life.
Shall end of with a quote I've lifted from the personality type page of ISFPs, ahahaha:

"I change during the course of a day. I wake and I’m one person, and when I go to sleep I know for certain I’m somebody else." -- Bob Dylan

When I am able to build landscapes in my mind
That's when I know I'm free.

And when these landscapes merge with reality
Reality of my own doing
That's when I know I'm myself.

^_^

Really like this quote I picked up from that scary murder mystery book I talked about:
Be choosy with who you love, and even choosier with who you hate.
:))

The things we keep secret are the things which matter most to us. And which we think are very fragile or destructive.

But it does feel good to just stop giving a hoot about them (here you might notice I've censored myself) and just let it all tumble out of your mouth when people ask. (or your fingers when they're tapping on your phone)

Not talking about a one-off incident but incidents accumulated over time.