It's kinda scary how you've got to tread carefully around some people. 

Sigh I hate how I'm blogging so much I'm turning into one of those lousy keyboard warriors but I can't help it cos I'm hooked to the laptop all day DOING RP

which I don't know how to do

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Yet. Hopefully. 

GAH. And the weather's so lovely these days. No rain. Just sunshine and wind. And I'm cooped up in here. Pffffft.

Why was I so afraid?

I mean, it's healthy to be aware... but not too healthy to place so much importance on it.

Favourite words:
forward
freedom
fufill your dreams
positive
tempus fugit
devil-may-care attitude
forgiveness
love
open mind
honesty
independence
food

Today's quote:
To lead a society, the MM says in his precise Victorian English, "one must understand human nature. I have always thought that humanity was animal-like. The Confucian theory was man could be improved, but I'm not sure he can be. He can be trained, he can be disciplined." 
source: http://ngm.nationalgeographic.com/print/2010/01/singapore/jacobson-text 

I can't say I'm not bought over by these words. And I'm quite wowed by the stunning honesty of these words. I like honesty.
But I think some humans-- emphasis: some-- constantly rise above the animal-like nature of the rest and they end up being givers and nurturers. Like Mother Teresa and Gandhi, etc.
I believe in the goodness of humans. But I also believe only a special few have the ability to harness this goodness. The rest don't. The rest are kind, yes, but in small ways-- they lapse in between goodness and animal-likeness. That special few like Mother Teresa and Gandhi, they are able to go against societal norms and they are also at least 95% selfless.
I am not saying that just because humanity can be trained and disciplined, he should be trained and disciplined all the time. Nope, that is the is-ought fallacy-- just because something is, doesn't mean it ought to be.

My greatest fear right now is to be reduced to something soulless and evil.
Familiar words? Those are the words used to describe Dementors in the HP series.

I live in a really pragmatic world, and I don't like it. That's something I cannot hide. Why do I say that? Some people only give a shit about you when you're in a position of power.
But to complain about the world being pragmatic shows a certain level of narcissism and how I'm being self-centred, which is a common ailment of my generation, so I'll shut my trap and try to be happier. In other ways. And realize that I'm real lucky to have people around me who do give a shit about me.
And likewise I'll give a shit about them, and more, because that's how friendship and love work.

'Cos the people who don't care are not worth caring about.

staring at one RP the whole day is no joke.
i'll go sleep now before my sanity is compromised.
#extremelypissedbutnotsurewithwho