After the past few days? weeks? of slumber and slacking at home, I'm getting kinda excited at the prospect of camps and instances of brainless rahrah cheering. There are times when you look back and think, cheering is stupid, but there are also times when you look back on the cheers and the people fondly. It's not just the cheers, but the activities which you do for the sake of doing because everyone is having fun doing them.
Right now I'm wondering if I should sign up for a 3rd camp so I can get the free freshman tshirt, but I'm leaning towards 'no' because I am rather unwilling to sign my few days away wading in mud? or getting carried by guys? if they can even lift me up from the ground, because my weight is something to reckon with. Some camps could be more relaxed and comfortable than that, but I'm not sure which one is...
So I'm gonna read up about the clubs on the website!
Apparently no one uses MSN nowadays, but I always do when I use the computer, so I'm always faced with a long long list of offline contacts T.T so lonely. And all the friends I made in JC, they have all faded away, leaving me with the regular handful whom I keep in touch with on my phone. Sometimes I'm vaguely envious of those who keep in touch with their juniors and seniors and probably a whole crowd of other people, but there's nothing and nobody to blame. It's just a fact that I'm socially lazy xD It really takes a significant amount of planning to make an outing fun, and an even more significant amount of energy to maintain the talking between friends. Or 'friends'.
Which is why I'm looking forward to the camps, where a fresh new load of people come into my life and I get to talk more, for a reason, not just for the sake of maintaining a relationship.
It's different with friends (without the ""s) because if you don't talk, you still know they are out there but within your reach.
One irksome thing about having fresh new loads of people come into your life is that people start to scan the faces for a handsome/pretty one, people they call cute guys or chiobus. I've been hearing a lot of that recently, e.g. people spamming on what'sapp/websites: HEY your group have chiobus or not?! And to a smaller extent: Got cute guys?
I don't want to be a hypocrite; I admit I like to see good-looking faces and I pay them more attention. :P But what I dislike is people who don't look beyond that. On the bright side I think there are very few people like that.
Bored x 100000000!
But come august maybe I'll start to say tired x 1000000!

Play this. Now! :))

I used to complain a lot about schools and other stuff right, but recently I heard some wise words about how any system cannot ever be perfect. Society could try to plug the gaps in policy/the system here and there, but there can never be a perfect system because I guess every measure you implement is a double-edged sword. 

Solution to the above problem is in this quote: "People are always blaming their circumstances for what they are. I don't believe in circumstances. The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and, if they can't find them, make them." (George Bernard Shaw) *quote koped from a talk today. :)

On an unrelated note, I'd like to summarize some thoughts I've been having:

On a few occasions, I see people holding pears and I feel a tiny niggling in the bottom of my mind, beneath all that assured calm. Am I not worthy of the pear? What's worthiness anyway? .... etc etc. And I would really detest myself for allowing myself to think of all these. These thoughts really just go in circles. It's a disgusting circle really, but I guess most people at certain points in their lives ask themselves this same question. 

Besides acknowledging that the apple has its own set of merits and the pear has its own other set of merits (and these sets might overlap), I've also come to another conclusion, which is that between beating up my self-esteem, and acknowledging that the apple is indeed very tasty, I would rather have the latter and enjoy it, and let it sweeten up my life.

Other reasons: getting the apple is not the absolute end of it, because there are still many other fruits out there to try, and maybe even new species of fruits I could genetically engineer. (o.o)

That's it. I'm talking about apples and pears because I'm really embarrassed that I'm talking about such an old topic, but I'm sure it brings across the same point. 

My post reminds me of a senior who gave us a talk last year. He's an earnest fellow and he told us about apples and pears as well. Throughout December his friends were getting pears, rejoicing and preparing their stuff, but he was alone there, moping about how he didn't get any pears. So he started looking for apples. But fortunately for him he did get a pear, later on in January. He said that this process taught him an important life lesson, which is to be humble. I'd like to add that he shouldn't have said "humble", I think "flexibility in choosing fruits" is a much better way to phrase his life lesson.

I don't like how I'm writing this because writing seems to make it a larger issue when it is really a small one, and it leaves quite a yucky taste in my mouth (figuratively). But I'll still put this up because my intention in writing this was to leave a good feeling with myself and maybe even you guys. I hope that after reading this you don't think of me as an emo nutcase who's giving too much thought to the smallest issues such as apples and pears. D: 

Keane's voice is lovely:


Learning more about the art of slacking at home everyday. When I realized that time was stretching out ahead of me I felt frustrated at first, but now I start to notice many little things I can do to occupy my time, such as transferring photos, reading, housework, jogging, etc etc.
I've kind of lost my interest in blogging. More updates soon, when life gets more hectic...